Family & Faith

Sorry I've neglected you once again for a 2 month stint little blog. As I've told myself before, it's so important to reflect as you go, and lately I've just been going and perhaps in the absence of reflecting more frequently, found myself a little bit out of sorts.

Already in my 14th week of teaching drama! Began a new semester this past week with kindergarten, 1st grade, 4th grade, 6th grade and 8th grade. Some things that have gone well, in the midst of constantly changing my speaking register and the arrangement of my room to accomodate 5 year olds to 15 year olds -

-the little ones made character hats before they acted out the 3 Little Pigs. Super cute, super easy lesson and really helped them develop character a little quicker than just character walks and voices. (works well for Kinder and 1st, maybe even 2nd)

-did an impromptu speech project with the older students - they had 30 seconds to present a cold speech from a topic they chose on the spot, then we reflected on good and bad speaking habits. Even though this lesson was rocky at times, I think for me it really did set up a clear baseline of where the kids' confidence is at and it also gave me an opportunity to stress how important it is to be able to have conviction and confidence when you are speaking.

Otherwise, I've been a bit discouraged lately. Maybe it's the point in the year when you're supposed to see some kind of amazing shift in the creativity the students are putting out there, and I'm just not seeing it. Maybe it's the point in the year where I am supposed to be getting feedback about how great I am doing - but I feel like I have received the opposite. Looking for inspiration in Denver is hard, the mountains are a wonderful sanctuary on the weekends to forget about the stress I put on myself related to work. But artistic and creative inspiration is sparse.

For these fallish/winterish months I've decided to focus on family and faith, and see what happens when I trust my roots and the people who root me, more than just my own individual endeavors and ideas. I want to be surprised by what I can actually discover when I put my faith in my family and my family and their faith, first?!

the definition of faith is --- complete trust or confidence in someone or something

To me, this means letting go of instincts that go otherwise than what your heart tells you. Having faith that the future is going to turn out okay, based on the fact that all decisions you've made up to now have created a great life, full of adventures, friends, challenges and triumphs. Letting go of worries and difficulties, and having faith that the people who love you and you loving yourself is what is going to make everything fall into its right place.


the definition of family is - a person or people related to one and so to be treated with a special loyalty or intimacy

Coming from a very small actual biological family, my idea of family includes but extends past just my parents, grandparents, etc. While they are the people who root me, who we have an unconditional and mutual love for each other, when I think about who else I treat with special loyalty or intimacy it definitely includes many friends I've made along the way. These days it includes a boyfriend, who has a large biological family nearby, whom he has so graciously included me in many times now, and provides me with a huge sense of special intimacy. This leaves me feeling super grateful but also with a sense of emptiness and wonder how he'd fit with my family, with my home base, how he can intertwine himself with my roots.

So I am going to ask a lot of questions, give lots of love and attention to family and the faith that they provide me with. Seems appropriate at the holiday times anyways, but has been something that has been on my brain a lot recently. I'll be going back home twice this holiday season, and I am confident that those trips will give me lots of motivation and recharged energy to use in the areas I feel deflated these days.

So cheers to turkey or tofurkey, cheers to snow, cheers to love that comes in many wonderful forms.
C

Commitment & Creativity

If there are any followers out there, sorry it's been so long! Caroline has still been in Denver, but my life is such a super different version than what it was the last time I made some remarks on this little blog. Let's start with the biggies -

-said good bye to some really amazing students, co-workers and friends

- spent 3 weeks this summer teaching THEATER at Denver Camp at my placement school, with 4th-8th graders. Lots of fun, great practice for my new job!

-moved to a new apartment by myself, just around the corner from my previous house, after the other 3 of my room mates and I all went separate directions for new journeys!

-spent the rest of the summer taking trips for college friends' weddings in Sioux Falls and Kansas City, a few trips to Minneapolis to spend time with my bride friend whom I am a bridesmaid for this fall, also taking an epic camping trip to Capitol Reef NP, Bryce Canyon NP, and ZIon NP all in Utah with my fabulous friend and previous room mate, and finally a trip home to see my extended family in Chicago

-met a really great guy who I am still spending lots of time with and is making me very happy

Flash forward to NOW. Working at my new job teaching drama to 2nd, 3rd, 5th and 6th graders right now, but will eventually see almost all 990 students at FPW. LOVING the challenge of creating my own curriculum, the challenge of starting up a theater program at this school, putting together a drama club, potentially putting up some performances, and embracing the every day laughter and joy of being with kids while they create, perform and respond. It is really a great change for me, and every day I learn something new that inspires me to make myself better.

I have not given up on my monthly intentions, I just haven't been as faithful about blogging them. I think August and September has been commitment and creativity.

commitment = dedication; application, a pledge or undertaking

creativity = the use of the imagination or original ideas, esp. in the production of an artistic work.


I have really RE-COMMITTED to teaching after a summer of lots of changes, and specifically been trying to COMMIT to my new placement. Being at a new school is not easy, meeting teachers, getting used to the culture and the kids even. But after about 6 weeks, it feels right being there, and even though there are good and bad days, I feel a sense of commitment to being there and being my best self. I have also needed to commit to the way my life has changed, realizing that a lot of my closest friends are no longer here or close by, but having this new special person in my life to commit to, it's been something to work on for me.

I have also really needed to fuel my creativity, as I see my students for 45 minutes in 3 week or 6 week blocks, so constantly evaluating my lesson plans and how I can transfer creative instincts to my students in that short amount of time. I have already joined some professional communities in Denver to help fuel my creativity, and I have began some, what I think, are creative ideas for my year in theater/drama. So I am excited to continue these efforts to fuel my creativity.

I want to use the blog now to continue to practice my writing, as I have realized that maybe some day I'd consider a career of it (?) but also to provide other theater teachers or aspiring drama enthusiasts or educators, with ideas that have worked for me. So look forward to more posts about creative lessons or ideas to use in K-8 general ed classes and theater classes.

As JP always says, peace, love and learning.

C

Wrapping up responsibilities

The 2010-2011 school year has finally come to an end! Even though now it seems like this year has flown by, I have to say that as a whole, this school year has really tested my limits as far as patience and balance is concerned. However, I feel extremely relieved and proud of the work I have done this year and in these last two years with TFA, and I would not go back and change a thing.

Last week was full of festivities, beginning with Noel Idol, the talent show, that myself and my other teacher friend organized. While our students are still learning proper audience etiquette, and still developing their singing, dancing and instrumental talents, we got a lot of compliments for the way the show was done and how much work the kids and ourselves put into the show. It was a lot of fun, as the co- emcee, and the highlight for my student may have been when I went to sit down with the judges on the stage, and missed the chair and fell completely on my butt in front of the entire 7th grade.

Wednesday was the 8th grade Continuation, which myself and LM also had a lot of organization and planning energies involved in. The ceremony was nice, similar to last year, lost of families there, over-the-top outfits and tears, balloons, bouquets, but it created a really nice feeling of finality to the year and I was pretty proud of most of the kids who showed up. Our bottom line however, was hoping that these kids and families want MORE of these continuation/graduations ceremonies to happen for these kids, that this was not the last one but the first one of many to come.

Thursday we went to Elitch's (the Great America, or Six Flags of Denver) with the 8th graders, and all of the 8th graders started to add us on Facebook.. That has been interesting to negotiate. . .

This weekend has just been full of fun, parties and being outside, BBQ's, celebrating the end of a solid year and the start of a good summer. My summer is packed full of working here in Denver, moving then traveling around for weddings and having wonderful visitors come to Denver and play music. I am super excited for all of the fun things lined up for this summer, it's going to be great and well-deserved before the next, new crazy adventure of a school year starts up again.

Responsibility in May? Yeah, I think I rocked it. Tomorrow I will check out with Teach for America and Rachel B. Noel officially, and then I think I will feel like my job has been done. I am grateful for the sense of urgency I have developed towards reforming education that working at that school has given me. TFA and RBN helped me to get a clearer picture of what the achievement gap is and put me in a school that feels it and is perishing because of it. Now, it's up to me to guide myself down other paths in continuing to be a part of the solutions to the achievement gap. Hopefully for me, that path is through being a drama teacher, or building and supporting advocacy for arts education policy. I am excited for how this experience is going to always inform the choices I make concerning education and the actions I continue to take to try to close the achievement gap. It's hard work, but it's worthy work.

Until next school year?
Ms. Younts

late night thoughts on teaching -

I'm looking at myself in the mirror, the night before 8th graders Continuation, and I come to the ugly realization that 2 years of TFA teaching does the same thing to your face that happens to the president after 4 years in presidency.

yikes, this summer I must de-haggard myself.

I am starting to think that teaching is not about the ones you leave behind, but the ones that you pick up.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." — Dr. Seuss

Weird/offensive/sad/funny/inappropriate responses to the end of the year happening at RBN.

- lots of ditching, unfortunately done by one of my favorite students. We tracked her down and caught her, and at this point in the school year there were no consequence s given to any of them from the administration. ugh.

-Marcus telling me I was the best teacher ever and that they are sad when I am not there and that they are going to miss me a lot.
:)

-My 8th graders spending an entire period telling me I looked like a past (uglier) teacher, and then telling me that I looked like 2 of the other students, basically spent the whole time making fun of me and other teachers. I was trying to read "Oh the Places You'll Go" to them, and got all emotional, and all they could do was make fun of me. I am attesting this to several things: maybe this is their reaction to me being emotional and telling them I am proud of them and telling them how I will miss them and that I hope all the best for them in their futures. Maybe they can't handle the emotion, or they can't handle someone actually showing compassion towards them. Even though it sucked that they were basically calling me ugly and boring, I believe deep down their is some other explanation to their reaction.

- fights resulting in kids in the hospital :(

- two fire alarm pulls

- many Noel Idol talent show rehearsals, with lots of talented kiddos :)

-lots of food, packing, stress, rain, long days and even a few tears.

Definitely time for this part of the teaching journey to come to a bittersweet ending. Interesting to sit back and take inventory of how we are all dealing with the closing of this chapter.

- C

noel idol talent

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ecB2JAf-sK8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKDR_PH20oc