Day 3

Not going to bad, working really hard on focusing on positivity and concentrating on kindness, combatting every moment of darkness with light. It's exhausting! It's tough work, especially going back to school and being confronted with co-workers who experience dread of coming back to school and the uncertainty of jobs next year is still looming in the air.

I made it to the gym today and did a decent job with food choices. Tried to get to bed early last night but that back to school anxiety set in when I turned off the light and I ended up tossing and turning most of the night. I'll try for 10pm tonight...
I think turning up the volume on my energy level is going to help with the exhaustion that fighting off negative comments brings. I can't even imagine how tiring it is going to be once the kids come back, today I only had to talk with teachers!

The las few days I have felt very much like an adult. I think engaging in negativity may be perceived or feel much like being immature or childish. It's easier to join in on the griping or whining than to hover above it and maintain serenity and focus. I feel like all the decisions I have made since Saturday morning have been leading me towards making people around me happy and in turn, making myself happier but it has all been very serious and concentrated. I wonder if I can achieve a balance of positivity, energy as well as light-heartedness, and not taking myself too seriously.

I know that this work is going to bring rewards.