Sometimes people need you in more ways than you might think is possible.
Sometimes that need has to be met in a way that you might not be sure you can fulfill.

It's nice to be needed.
But sometimes I get afraid that I am not enough to fulfill the needs of friends with heartache, with loss, with transformation, with support. I get afraid that I don't do or say or give the right things.

In the Islam religion, believers are told to focus more on the journey and the choices made along the way, rather than the result or the expectations. Leave expectations and live presently.

Even though right now, it feels like this whole crappy school and all of its failing systems are resting on my shoulders and the shoulders of my fellow teachers, it's really not. We just need to believe that our support for each other is enough and that its about the actions we choose to make every day rather than the result.

Even though right now, I am not sure if I am a good enough friend or spirit to the people who need me in their lives right now, its about the actions I take and not about whether or not I save them from their sorrow.


Keeping this in mind, I have not given up on April and my devotions to curiosity, but it seems to have been a month that has taken a different spin. And it's rained a lot more in Denver than it did last spring, which is very refreshing.